Something's wrong with me

I had a poopy day today! I hate it when I act like a typical "women" and I'm all mad and pissy for no reason. Then when I go over in my head what might be wrong, I get mad at myself cause it's usually so dumb!

The days that I work til 5 are so hard for the kids and me. Like today, I got off and ran to the store to get some stuff for dinner, I went to Navek's school cause he had soccer practice. We went home, and the kids are always so hyper when we get home....it takes them a little while to calm down. So we had dinner, taco salad. I made up every one's plate and tried to convince them it was good. Yzabelle usually tries everything, Emerald and Navek not so much. It looks and smells all pretty, but they always complain! It bugs me. I try to be strong and tell them that "this is dinner so you had better just eat it" Once Emerald and Navek tried it they ate most of it...ok ok ok I totally bribed them that if they finished it I would give them strawberry shortcake, whatever and some junk it worked! Anyway, I always feel like I'm in a hurry. A hurry to get dinner done, kids bathed, pj's, teeth, reading, calming down and finally bed. It's like I need to get them to bed, so we can wake up and freaking do it again. The mornings go the same way. Hurry get up, get dressed, quick....eat, backpack, teeth, coat, shoes, socks. Are they ever going to be in dependant and just KNOW what to do? Grrrrr! We always hurry out the door. Hurry, hurry, hurry! I need to be better about stopping.....relaxing (what the heck is that?) and enjoying life. It's hard for me.

If something falls on the floor......look at it and say to myself "no one is going to pick that up except me!!!!" Then I cry, no I don't really but I scream inside sometimes! And what's the deal with crumbs? Why does everything produce stupid crumbs! I hate them. I feel like I could sweep til the cows come home and still, somehow, there will be crumbs or lint, or a dried up booger or something on the floor waiting for my mean sweeping skills to take it away!! Maybe I should get a dog! Haha It would just be better if gravity was used only to keep heavy objects from floating up. I mean what would be the harm if messes just floated up in the air, or got sucked into some magical area where we never saw them again. Ok, I am majorly rambling. Need to go to bed!