Other stuff

I forgot to mention (Kevan reminded me) that Navek turned 7 on the 19 of December! Wow, time flies. He really is a great kid. He is such a blessing in my life. He is so good at so many things. I enjoy watching him with his little sisters and brother. He likes to put Tristyn on his shoulders and walk around the house with him. Thankfully he hasn't bumped into any walls or anything. He does the same thing with Emerald except she is just on his back. He carries her around the house and then he will come in the living room and fall on the couch with her and it makes her laugh and laugh! He is becoming a really good reader too. He can read a couple of the beginner Dr. Seuss books and he feels very accomplished with he finishes one! He has started to do this funny thing where he will say the last syllable first...so his name is Veknav, and Emerald is Raldem, Yzabelle is Belleyz. So imagine him singing a song. He will say all of the words regular and then through a funny word in there somewhere...for example..."ostyfrost the mansnow was a jolly happy soul, with a corncob pipe and a uttonba ohzno and to eyes made out of ollco" He's so funny and creative!

We had a pretty good Christmas. I love seeing the kids open up their presents. There cute little faces and their expressions are so funny. The kids played with their toys all day. It was fun to not have to go anywhere, and to just hang around the house.

Christmas is such a wonderful time of year. I felt so loved and cared for in our ward and neighborhood. So many people left presents and other gifts for me and the kids. I felt so sooo sooooo good and taken care of. I knew that they had listened to the spirit and had followed through with whatever act of kindness the could for us. Thank you so much...I have no idea who they were but I know that they will be blessed for their kindness

Merry Christmas!!

Man it has really been a long time since my last post. Kevan took the computer to his sisters house, so I don't have one at home and when I'm at work, it need to work!!

Holy Crap!! Life is so busy for me right now. Here is an update on the last month or so.

We had a fun Thanksgiving with Kevan and his parents, and his sister, they came up from California. We had a nice dinner and enjoyed the evening playing games and getting ready for shopping the next day. Jennifer and Kevan got up at 4:30 and went to Wal-Mart. I got up at 5:30 and ran over to Target and stood in line for the store to open up at 6. Holy early!! It was so fun though. We got a couple of things that were such a good deal, it was worth spending what little money we had!! Later that night we went to this place down in SL, it was a "fun center" kind of thing. There were rides for the kids, and we also played miniature golf all of Kevan's family were there, well at least the ones who lived in Utah. Kevan took the kids over to Juliann's house for the night and I went up to the house and finished up some house work and a little project that I was working of for our Tree. I will explain later. Saturday I went down to J's house and we all had another Thanksgiving dinner.

Every year, the Monday after Thanksgiving is "The Festival of Trees". It is one of my most favorite days of the whole year. Six ladies, including myself, decorate a Christmas tree in memory of our babies that we lost. So the tree is just for them. I think about all of the time and energy, the love and concern I have for my 4 kids here and all that I do for them. I love them so much. Well, this tree is for Yzabeth. Oh, that cute little girl! And that stupid cord that was wrapped so tight around her neck..sorry, I just had to get that out!! Anyway, I think about her too. I think about what my life would be like if she was here with our family. I think about what she would look like. I know that she was identical to Yzabelle, but how would they look the same and how would they be different. I think of her cute little face. It just flashes through my mind. I just think of her a lot. The tree really brings me closer to her. We make, and gather things and then we decorate it. We do it in this huge conference place in Sandy. Anyway, the trees are auctioned off and all the money raised goes to Primary Children's Hospital. There are hundreds of trees, gingerbread houses, and wreaths. It is such a wonderful, spiritual thing. I love doing it! This was our 5th year!! I will get pictures from my friend and post them later!

So much to say! I will write more later!!

Junk and stuff

Life is busy, busy, busy. I haven't written in a while just for that reason.

Tristyn was sick last week. He had a fever for a couple of days and I love it. That may sound weird but boyfriend is so flappy, and wiggly and always moving, but when the fever hit he wanted to SNUGGLE. Holy cow, I didn't know what to do with myself. It was fun to have his little head on my chest and for him to just want me to hold him. My house suffered from it though, I'm okay with that, he's only a baby once!

I'm doing pretty good considering my circumstances! I feel like my heart is light and I am happy most of the time. I have been very grateful for such wonderful parents. I have always been amazed with how supportive and loving they are with ALL of their children (8). They have been the best example of how parents should unconditionally love their children. I think that we were all raised the same, but we have all made different decisions and chosen different lives for ourselves. No matter what though, our parents have always loved us. They have always loved me. Silly old Jessica (Bones is what they call me!). There have been times where I haven't wanted to tell them what is going on in my life and stuff like that, but when I do, they never judge, or tell me what to do. They are the best parents, and I love them so much!! I am a lucky daughter!! I hope that I can be like them as my children get older.

Gettin' round

Tristyn has officially, as of 5 days ago, started to crawl. He also has been pulling himself up on furniture and beds, and stuff. He thinks that he is sooo cool too. He is a little dare devil. He will pull himself up and then let go and balance for a second or two and let go at only 7 months old! He plops on the floor on his bottom and then crawls over to whatever interests him. He was in the bathtub the other night doing this. Standing up...and falling on his cute little bottom, then he would flap his arms like a crazy boy and splash in the water . He did it over and over again. I think that he thought he was funny...of course we did too. He can never just sit still either, he is so wiggly...is that even a word? He is always moving and bopping up and down. I am so glad that he is such a good baby. Heavenly Father has truly blessed me with such a happy spirit.

Emerald is a sassy little lady. The other day she was telling me that she needed to look at Naveks private parts, and I said no she could not. Then she proceeded to say "I have to mom.....I have to!" Okay whatever! She will say "I have to mom....I have to." about lots of things...like hitting her brother or sister, or eating candy before dinner, or just naughty things in general. Why she feels that she has to be so verbal with her intentions is so hilarious, and beyond me! At the same time it's very hard to keep a straight face and be serious, and redirect her to be nice and to make good choices. Oh my...what will the future bring.

Last night Navek was telling me that he was looking forward to voting on voting day. I told him that he had to be 18 to vote. This made him very sad...so sad infact that he started to cry. I asked him if he wanted to come with me to vote on Tuesday. He said yes. So I checked him out of school early today and he went with me to the polls. I showed him the machines and told him what I was doing. He really enjoyed it. Maybe he will grow up and be in politics!!

Every time something makes Yzabelle sad, or unhappy she will touch her eye and say "eye hurts" I'm not sure why. She has been a little moody lately. It's easy to get her to smile though...all I have to do is say "don't you smile....don't you laugh!" And she instantly starts to laugh!! That's what my dad used to do to me !!

Where have I been?

Wow, I have been so busy, tired, stressed out lately that I haven't posted in a long time. I have been a single mom for about a month now. Kevan is living with his sister right now in SJ. The kids go to visit him every Friday night and return on Saturday. It's nice to have a little break. I have increased my hours to 20 a week. I average about 4 hours a day. My sister L watches my kids and she gets paid from he state gov. It's nice to not have that added expense, it would eat up my whole paycheck!

Navek has been off-track for 2 weeks now, but looks forward being back in school. He had an awesome season in soccer. He is such a fast runner, and loves scoring ( he averaged about 3 goals a game!) He still has the best imagination, and is so creative. I had a parent teacher conference and his teacher said that she always looks forward to seeing his work, cause it's so awesome.

Yzabelle loves going to pre-school. She gets to ride the bus, which is also very exciting. It picks her up at our house and drops her off and Lindsey's house. Very convenient for me! She is talking more and more, her teacher said that she is opening up more to her and the other teachers. Maybe she will start talking to the kids! She loves to draw and just be cute!

Emerald wishes so much that she could go to school. She has a new interest in taking care of her dolls. She loves to collect things. When we get ready to go somewhere she goes into her room and tries to carry as much as she can get in her hands. She thinks that she must bring all of it in the car with us. She is so funny.

Little Tristyn is really movin and groovin'. About a month ago he really started to get around the house my doing this really cool body flop-worm crawl. He is really fast. When he is more patient with himself he does do a little crawling. Last week he thought that it would be cool to pull himself up on furniture. What a smart little boy. He likes the feeling of being tall I guess. He is such a good baby. He loves to play in the girls room and chew and slobber on all of their toys. he pulls himself up on their bed, and the little kitchen and the bookshelf in their room. I hope that he is not walking anytime soon. He likes to eat...what baby doesn't! He is my only baby that has ever like rice cereal, of course I mix it with applesauce but he pounds that stuff down. He is always flopping too. He flaps his arms sooo much, I think that he thinks if he does it enough he will eventually fly. He is sooooo happy. He is always smiling and just being cute!

Being by myself is hard, but I am happy. We will see what is in the future for Kevan and myself. Only the Lord knows!!

Yzabelle turns 5!!!

Yzabelle's birthday was last week. I have been meaning to write about her and all of her progress...this is probably a good time. Holy cow I can't believe that she is 5!!

She has grown and learned so much over this past year. I am so proud of her. I get frustrated with her sometimes because she is so stubborn, but then i realize that she needs to be stubborn to help her with her disability.

She is a very sweet considerate little girl. She is never shy and never hesitates to give kisses...I love that. She loves to snuggle and hug and be held. I think that's her idea of a good time. She is very gentle with Tristyn (at least most of the time). Her and Emerald play so cute together. Usually Belle is the baby and Emerald is the mom...does that really surprise you??

Her favorite thing in the world are the Disney princesses. Anything that has to do with Cinderella, Belle, Ariel or any of them catches her attention. I'm sure that she thinks that she is one of them.

She loves to sing. She knows all of the words to "Teach Me to Walk in the Light" and we sing it every night before we go to bed. She actually sings with me...it's so great. Her favorite movies are "Mary Poppins" and "The Sound of Music" That movie is like almost 3 hours long and she will actually sit there and watch the whole thing...She knows a lot of the songs to The sound of music...she calls it "hills." This is major progress for her. She can remember the words and then tries to say them. Even if she can't get all of the words she still know the tune to the song. Sometimes I will sing the songs with her and stop at a certain point and she will fill in the missing word. What a smart girl. She makes up song too. Sometimes when Tristyn is crying she will go up and in her cute little singing voice say "Uh hill(ww)s a lolly day!" We don't know exactly what she is saying, but it's cute anyway!! She knows primary songs, but doesn't sing at church. I think that she knows more than we think she does.

She started her 3rd year of preschool this year. I have been trying to work with her on her colors, and shapes. I think that she knows most of her colors, I'm not too sure about the shapes.

She is talking so much more than she was last year. She can put 3-4 words together in a sentence, but a lot of the filler words are "uh". I totally speak "Yzabelle" though so I get what she is saying mostly! I am hoping that she will branch out and start to talk to other people. I think that most of time she speaks very clearly, but she is really shy and quiet in front of other people.

She is so willing to try new things. Last year she wouldn't go near the trampoline. This year it was one of her favorite things to do outside. She can jump really high and it is a good exercises because it puts pressure on both of her legs. And oh man...you should see that girl swing... This is another thing that just amazes the crap out of me. She actually holds on to the swing with both hands and pumps her feet. She goes soooo high! It is really a great thing because she has to hold on with both hands, and I know that she has to hold on really tight in order to go so high. She has really improved strength in her right hand (the one she doesn't use as much)

She also can (FINALLY) get herself dressed. She is so funny when she does it too. Her clothes are either in-side-out, or backwards, or both. But she doesn't care. Have you ever tried to put on your clothes with one hand? I am so glad that she can finally do this. She hardly ever asks for help either. Last year she used to stay in her room for 1/2 hour just trying to put on underwear. She would scream and cry because it was so hard for her, and she would get soo mad at me if I tried to help her. I eventually learned that she really did just want to do it herself. Totally determined and some junk!!

She loves to color, draw and paint. Last year she would just scribble. This year she has turned scribbling into circles and little pictures. She says that she is drawing people. They have fat little bodies and really long arms. She tries to draw eyes, and noses too. I love seeing her pictures.

She is so happy and she loves to laugh...totally just like in Mary Poppins!!

I am so impressed with her. I don't know how she does what she does. For those of you who keep wondering what I'm talking about...she has been labeled "developmentally delayed" She suffered a stroke right before I delivered her. She has right sided weakness. The doctors told me that she may never walk or talk. She totally proved them wrong. I am so proud of all her accomplishments. She is so wonderful and sweet, and so stinkin' beautiful!!

I wish that I had better pictures, but my camera is broken!

Give mamma a little kiss!!

it's been a while

Sorry it has been so long since I have posted anything. Well, it seems by my comment section that no one but my sister and my friend read my blog anyway!

I have had a hard month. Time is going by so fast for me and so much is happening with my kids. I feel bad that I don't write down their every move and note their every word! I have been so tired at night so I just go to sleep instead of staying up late on the computer.

Some of the blogs that I read are annoying to me. It seems like no one has any problems or trials. Why don't people ever write about those kind of things. Life is all wonderful and perfect according to their posts. Wow what a positive happy mood I'm in!